The Atheıst’s Mass

12 Temmuz 2007



THE ATHEIST’S MASS

BY

HONORE DE BALZAC

Translator,

Clara Bell

This is dedicated to Auguste Borget by his friend De Balzac

Bianchon, a physician to whom science owes a fine system of

theoretical physiology, and who, while still young, made himself

a celebrity in the medical school of Paris, that central luminary

to which European doctors do homage, practised surgery for a long

time before he took up medicine. His earliest studies were guided

by one of the greatest of French surgeons, the illustrious

Desplein, who flashed across science like a meteor. By the

consensus even of his enemies, he took with him to the tomb an

incommunicable method. Like all men of genius, he had no heirs;

he carried everything in him, and carried it away with him. The

glory of a surgeon is like that of an actor: they live only so

long as they are alive, and their talent leaves no trace when

they are gone. Actors and surgeons, like great singers too, like

the executants who by their performance increase the power of

music tenfold, are all the heroes of a moment.

Desplein is a case in proof of this resemblance in the destinies

of such transient genius. His name, yesterday so famous, to-day

almost forgotten, will survive in his special department without

crossing its limits. For must there not be some extraordinary

circumstances to exalt the name of a professor from the history

of Science to the general history of the human race? Had Desplein

that universal command of knowledge which makes a man the living

word, the great figure of his age? Desplein had a godlike eye; he

saw into the sufferer and his malady by an intuition, natural or

acquired, which enabled him to grasp the diagnostics peculiar to

the individual, to determine the very time, the hour, the minute

when an operation should be performed, making due allowance for

atmospheric conditions and peculiarities of individual

temperament. To proceed thus, hand in hand with nature, had he

then studied the constant assimilation by living beings, of the

elements contained in the atmosphere, or yielded by the earth to

man who absorbs them, deriving from them a particular expression

of life? Did he work it all out by the power of deduction and

analogy, to which we owe the genius of Cuvier? Be this as it may,

this man was in all the secrets of the human frame; he knew it in

the past and in the future, emphasizing the present.

But did he epitomize all science in his own person as Hippocrates

did and Galen and Aristotle? Did he guide a whole school towards

new worlds? No. Though it is impossible to deny that this

persistent observer of human chemistry possessed that antique

science of the Mages, that is to say, knowledge of the elements

in fusion, the causes of life, life antecedent to life, and what

it must be in its incubation or ever it IS, it must be confessed

that, unfortunately, everything in him was purely personal.

Isolated during his life by his egoism, that egoism is now

suicidal of his glory. On his tomb there is no proclaiming statue

to repeat to posterity the mysteries which genius seeks out at

its own cost.

But perhaps Desplein’s genius was answerable for his beliefs, and

for that reason mortal. To him the terrestrial atmosphere was a

generative envelope; he saw the earth as an egg within its shell;

and not being able to determine whether the egg or the hen first

was, he would not recognize either the cock or the egg. He

believed neither in the antecedent animal nor the surviving

spirit of man. Desplein had no doubts; he was positive. His bold

and unqualified atheism was like that of many scientific men, the

best men in the world, but invincible atheists–atheists such as

religious people declare to be impossible. This opinion could

scarcely exist otherwise in a man who was accustomed from his

youth to dissect the creature above all others–before, during,

and after life; to hunt through all his organs without ever

finding the individual soul, which is indispensable to religious

theory. When he detected a cerebral centre, a nervous centre, and

a centre for aerating the blood–the first two so perfectly

complementary that in the latter years of his life he came to a

conviction that the sense of hearing is not absolutely necessary

for hearing, nor the sense of sight for seeing, and that the

solar plexus could supply their place without any possibility of

doubt–Desplein, thus finding two souls in man, confirmed his

atheism by this fact, though it is no evidence against God. This

man died, it is said, in final impenitence, as do, unfortunately,

many noble geniuses, whom God may forgive.

The life of this man, great as he was, was marred by many

meannesses, to use the expression employed by his enemies, who

were anxious to diminish his glory, but which it would be more

proper to call apparent contradictions. Envious people and fools,

having no knowledge of the determinations by which superior

spirits are moved, seize at once on superficial inconsistencies,

to formulate an accusation and so to pass sentence on them. If,

subsequently, the proceedings thus attacked are crowned with

success, showing the correlations of the preliminaries and the

results, a few of the vanguard of calumnies always survive. In

our day, for instance, Napoleon was condemned by our

contemporaries when he spread his eagle’s wings to alight in

England: only 1822 could explain 1804 and the flatboats at

Boulogne.

As, in Desplein, his glory and science were invulnerable, his

enemies attacked his odd moods and his temper, whereas, in fact,

he was simply characterized by what the English call

eccentricity. Sometimes very handsomely dressed, like Crebillon

the tragical, he would suddenly affect extreme indifference as to

what he wore; he was sometimes seen in a carriage, and sometimes

on foot. By turns rough and kind, harsh and covetous on the

surface, but capable of offering his whole fortune to his exiled

masters–who did him the honor of accepting it for a few days–no

man ever gave rise to such contradictory judgements. Although to

obtain a black ribbon, which physicians ought not to intrigue

for, he was capable of dropping a prayer-book out of his pocket

at Court, in his heart he mocked at everything; he had a deep

contempt for men, after studying them from above and below, after

detecting their genuine expression when performing the most

solemn and the meanest acts of their lives.

The qualities of a great man are often federative. If among these

colossal spirits one has more talent than wit, his wit is still

superior to that of a man of whom it is simply stated that “he is

witty.” Genius always presupposes moral insight. This insight may

be applied to a special subject; but he who can see a flower must

be able to see the sun. The man who on hearing a diplomate he has

saved ask, “How is the Emperor?” could say, “The courtier is

alive; the man will follow!”–that man is not merely a surgeon or

a physician, he is prodigiously witty also. Hence a patient and

diligent student of human nature will admit Desplein’s exorbitant

pretensions, and believe–as he himself believed–that he might

have been no less great as a minister than he was as a surgeon.

Among the riddles which Desplein’s life presents to many of his

contemporaries, we have chosen one of the most interesting,

because the answer is to be found at the end of the narrative,

and will avenge him for some foolish charges.

Of all the students in Desplein’s hospital, Horace Bianchon was

one of those to whom he most warmly attached himself. Before

being a house surgeon at the Hotel-Dieu, Horace Bianchon had been

a medical student lodging in a squalid boarding house in the

Quartier Latin, known as the Maison Vauquer. This poor young man

had felt there the gnawing of that burning poverty which is a

sort of crucible from which great talents are to emerge as pure

and incorruptible as diamonds, which may be subjected to any

shock without being crushed. In the fierce fire of their

unbridled passions they acquire the most impeccable honesty, and

get into the habit of fighting the battles which await genius

with the constant work by which they coerce their cheated

appetites.

Horace was an upright young fellow, incapable of tergiversation

on a matter of honor, going to the point without waste of words,

and as ready to pledge his cloak for a friend as to give him his

time and his night hours. Horace, in short, was one of those

friends who are never anxious as to what they may get in return

for what they give, feeling sure that they will in their turn get

more than they give. Most of his friends felt for him that

deeply-seated respect which is inspired by unostentatious virtue,

and many of them dreaded his censure. But Horace made no pedantic

display of his qualities. He was neither a puritan nor a

preacher; he could swear with a grace as he gave his advice, and

was always ready for a jollification when occasion offered. A

jolly companion, not more prudish than a trooper, as frank and

outspoken–not as a sailor, for nowadays sailors are wily

diplomates–but as an honest man who has nothing in his life to

hide, he walked with his head erect, and a mind content. In

short, to put the facts into a word, Horace was the Pylades of

more than one Orestes–creditors being regarded as the nearest

modern equivalent to the Furies of the ancients.

He carried his poverty with the cheerfulness which is perhaps one

of the chief elements of courage, and, like all people who have

nothing, he made very few debts. As sober as a camel and active

as a stag, he was steadfast in his ideas and his conduct.

The happy phase of Bianchon’s life began on the day when the

famous surgeon had proof of the qualities and the defects which,

these no less than those, make Doctor Horace Bianchon doubly dear

to his friends. When a leading clinical practitioner takes a

young man to his bosom, that young man has, as they say, his foot

in the stirrup. Desplein did not fail to take Bianchon as his

assistant to wealthy houses, where some complimentary fee almost

always found its way into the student’s pocket, and where the

mysteries of Paris life were insensibly revealed to the young

provincial; he kept him at his side when a consultation was to be

held, and gave him occupation; sometimes he would send him to a

watering-place with a rich patient; in fact, he was making a

practice for him. The consequence was that in the course of time

the Tyrant of surgery had a devoted ally. These two men–one at

the summit of honor and of his science, enjoying an immense

fortune and an immense reputation; the other a humble Omega,

having neither fortune nor fame–became intimate friends.

The great Desplein told his house surgeon everything; the

disciple knew whether such or such a woman had sat on a chair

near the master, or on the famous couch in Desplein’s surgery, on

which he slept. Bianchon knew the mysteries of that temperament,

a compound of the lion and the bull, which at last expanded and

enlarged beyond measure the great man’s torso, and caused his

death by degeneration of the heart. He studied the eccentricities

of that busy life, the schemes of that sordid avarice, the hopes

of the politician who lurked behind the man of science; he was

able to foresee the mortifications that awaited the only

sentiment that lay hid in a heart that was steeled, but not of

steel.

One day Bianchon spoke to Desplein of a poor water-carrier of the

Saint-Jacques district, who had a horrible disease caused by

fatigue and want; this wretched Auvergnat had had nothing but

potatoes to eat during the dreadful winter of 1821. Desplein left

all his visits, and at the risk of killing his horse, he rushed

off, followed by Bianchon, to the poor man’s dwelling, and saw,

himself, to his being removed to a sick house, founded by the

famous Dubois in the Faubourg Saint-Denis. Then he went to attend

the man, and when he had cured him he gave him the necessary sum

to buy a horse and a water-barrel. This Auvergnat distinguished

himself by an amusing action. One of his friends fell ill, and he

took him at once to Desplein, saying to his benefactor, “I could

not have borne to let him go to any one else!”

Rough customer as he was, Desplein grasped the water-carrier’s

hand, and said, “Bring them all to me.”

He got the native of Cantal into the Hotel-Dieu, where he took

the greatest care of him. Bianchon had already observed in his

chief a predilection for Auvergnats, and especially for water

carriers; but as Desplein took a sort of pride in his cures at

the Hotel-Dieu, the pupil saw nothing very strange in that.

One day, as he crossed the Place Saint-Sulpice, Bianchon caught

sight of his master going into the church at about nine in the

morning. Desplein, who at that time never went a step without his

cab, was on foot, and slipped in by the door in the Rue du Petit-

Lion, as if he were stealing into some house of ill fame. The

house surgeon, naturally possessed by curiosity, knowing his

master’s opinions, and being himself a rabid follower of Cabanis

(Cabaniste en dyable, with the y, which in Rabelais seems to

convey an intensity of devilry)–Bianchon stole into the church,

and was not a little astonished to see the great Desplein, the

atheist, who had no mercy on the angels–who give no work to the

lancet, and cannot suffer from fistula or gastritis–in short,

this audacious scoffer kneeling humbly, and where? In the Lady

Chapel, where he remained through the mass, giving alms for the

expenses of the service, alms for the poor, and looking as

serious as though he were superintending an operation.

“He has certainly not come here to clear up the question of the

Virgin’s delivery,” said Bianchon to himself, astonished beyond

measure. “If I had caught him holding one of the ropes of the

canopy on Corpus Christi day, it would be a thing to laugh at;

but at this hour, alone, with no one to see–it is surely a thing

to marvel at!”

Bianchon did not wish to seem as though he were spying the head

surgeon of the Hotel-Dieu; he went away. As it happened, Desplein

asked him to dine with him that day, not at his own house, but at

a restaurant. At dessert Bianchon skilfully contrived to talk of

the mass, speaking of it as mummery and a farce.

“A farce,” said Desplein, “which has cost Christendom more blood

than all Napoleon’s battles and all Broussais’ leeches. The mass

is a papal invention, not older than the sixth century, and

based on the Hoc est corpus. What floods of blood were shed to

establish the Fete-Dieu, the Festival of Corpus Christi–the

institution by which Rome established her triumph in the question

of the Real Presence, a schism which rent the Church during three

centuries! The wars of the Count of Toulouse against the

Albigenses were the tail end of that dispute. The Vaudois and the

Albigenses refused to recognize this innovation.”

In short, Desplein was delighted to disport himself in his most

atheistical vein; a flow of Voltairean satire, or, to be

accurate, a vile imitation of the Citateur.

“Hallo! where is my worshiper of this morning?” said Bianchon to

himself.

He said nothing; he began to doubt whether he had really seen his

chief at Saint-Sulpice. Desplein would not have troubled himself

to tell Bianchon a lie, they knew each other too well; they had

already exchanged thoughts on quite equally serious subjects, and

discussed systems de natura rerum, probing or dissecting them

with the knife and scalpel of incredulity.

Three months went by. Bianchon did not attempt to follow the

matter up, though it remained stamped on his memory. One day that

year, one of the physicians of the Hotel-Dieu took Desplein by

the arm, as if to question him, in Bianchon’s presence.

“What were you doing at Saint-Sulpice, my dear master?” said he.

“I went to see a priest who has a diseased knee-bone, and to whom

the Duchesse d’Angouleme did me the honor to recommend me,” said

Desplein.

The questioner took this defeat for an answer; not so Bianchon.

“Oh, he goes to see damaged knees in church!–He went to mass,”

said the young man to himself.

Bianchon resolved to watch Desplein. He remembered the day and

hour when he had detected him going into Saint-Sulpice, and

resolved to be there again next year on the same day and at the

same hour, to see if he should find him there again. In that case

the periodicity of his devotion would justify a scientific

investigation; for in such a man there ought to be no direct

antagonism of thought and action.

Next year, on the said day and hour, Bianchon, who had already

ceased to be Desplein’s house surgeon, saw the great man’s cab

standing at the corner of the Rue de Tournon and the Rue du

Petit-Lion, whence his friend jesuitically crept along by the

wall of Saint-Sulpice, and once more attended mass in front of

the Virgin’s altar. It was Desplein, sure enough! The master-

surgeon, the atheist at heart, the worshiper by chance. The

mystery was greater than ever; the regularity of the phenomenon

complicated it. When Desplein had left, Bianchon went to the

sacristan, who took charge of the chapel, and asked him whether

the gentleman were a constant worshiper.

“For twenty years that I have been here,” replied the man, “M.

Desplein has come four times a year to attend this mass. He

founded it.”

“A mass founded by him!” said Bianchon, as he went away. “This is

as great a mystery as the Immaculate Conception–an article which

alone is enough to make a physician an unbeliever.”

Some time elapsed before Doctor Bianchon, though so much his

friend, found an opportunity of speaking to Desplein of this

incident of his life. Though they met in consultation, or in

society, it was difficult to find an hour of confidential

solitude when, sitting with their feet on the fire-dogs and their

head resting on the back of an armchair, two men tell each other

their secrets. At last, seven years later, after the Revolution

of 1830, when the mob invaded the Archbishop’s residence, when

Republican agitators spurred them on to destroy the gilt crosses

which flashed like streaks of lightning in the immensity of the

ocean of houses; when Incredulity flaunted itself in the streets,

side by side with Rebellion, Bianchon once more detected Desplein

going into Saint-Sulpice. The doctor followed him, and knelt down

by him without the slightest notice or demonstration of surprise

from his friend. They both attended this mass of his founding.

“Will you tell me, my dear fellow,” said Bianchon, as they left

the church, “the reason for your fit of monkishness? I have

caught you three times going to mass—- You! You must account to

me for this mystery, explain such a flagrant disagreement between

your opinions and your conduct. You do not believe in God, and

yet you attend mass? My dear master, you are bound to give me an

answer.”

“I am like a great many devout people, men who on the surface are

deeply religious, but quite as much atheists as you or I can be.”

And he poured out a torrent of epigrams on certain political

personages, of whom the best known gives us, in this century, a

new edition of Moliere’s Tartufe.

“All that has nothing to do with my question,” retorted Bianchon.

“I want to know the reason for what you have just been doing, and

why you founded this mass.”

“Faith! my dear boy,” said Desplein, “I am on the verge of the

tomb; I may safely tell you about the beginning of my life.”

At this moment Bianchon and the great man were in the Rue des

Quatre-Vents, one of the worst streets in Paris. Desplein pointed

to the sixth floor of one of the houses looking like obelisks, of

which the narrow door opens into a passage with a winding

staircase at the end, with windows appropriately termed “borrowed

lights”–or, in French, jours de souffrance. It was a greenish

structure; the ground floor occupied by a furniture-dealer, while

each floor seemed to shelter a different and independent form of

misery. Throwing up his arm with a vehement gesture, Desplein

exclaimed:

“I lived up there for two years.”

“I know; Arthez lived there; I went up there almost every day

during my first youth; we used to call it then the pickle-jar of

great men! What then?”

“The mass I have just attended is connected with some events

which took place at the time when I lived in the garret where you

say Arthez lived; the one with the window where the clothes line

is hanging with linen over a pot of flowers. My early life was so

hard, my dear Bianchon, that I may dispute the palm of Paris

suffering with any man living. I have endured everything: hunger

and thirst, want of money, want of clothes, of shoes, of linen,

every cruelty that penury can inflict. I have blown on my frozen

fingers in that PICKLE-JAR OF GREAT MEN, which I should like to

see again, now, with you. I worked through a whole winter, seeing

my head steam, and perceiving the atmosphere of my own moisture

as we see that of horses on a frosty day. I do not know where a

man finds the fulcrum that enables him to hold out against such a

life.

“I was alone, with no one to help me, no money to buy books or to

pay the expenses of my medical training; I had not a friend; my

irascible, touchy, restless temper was against me. No one

understood that this irritability was the distress and toil of a

man who, at the bottom of the social scale, is struggling to

reach the surface. Still, I had, as I may say to you, before whom

I need wear no draperies, I had that ground-bed of good feeling

and keen sensitiveness which must always be the birthright of any

man who is strong enough to climb to any height whatever, after

having long trampled in the bogs of poverty. I could obtain

nothing from my family, nor from my home, beyond my inadequate

allowance. In short, at that time, I breakfasted off a roll which

the baker in the Rue du Petit-Lion sold me cheap because it was

left from yesterday or the day before, and I crumbled it into

milk; thus my morning meal cost me but two sous. I dined only

every other day in a boarding-house where the meal cost me

sixteen sous. You know as well as I what care I must have taken

of my clothes and shoes. I hardly know whether in later life we

feel grief so deep when a colleague plays us false as we have

known, you and I, on detecting the mocking smile of a gaping seam

in a shoe, or hearing the armhole of a coat split, I drank

nothing but water; I regarded a cafe with distant respect.

Zoppi’s seemed to me a promised land where none but the Lucullus

of the pays Latin had a right of entry. ‘Shall I ever take a cup

of coffee there with milk in it?’ said I to myself, ‘or play a

game of dominoes?’

“I threw into my work the fury I felt at my misery. I tried to

master positive knowledge so as to acquire the greatest personal

value, and merit the position I should hold as soon as I could

escape from nothingness. I consumed more oil than bread; the

light I burned during these endless nights cost me more than

food. It was a long duel, obstinate, with no sort of consolation.

I found no sympathy anywhere. To have friends, must we not form

connections with young men, have a few sous so as to be able to

go tippling with them, and meet them where students congregate?

And I had nothing! And no one in Paris can understand that

nothing means NOTHING. When I even thought of revealing my

beggary, I had that nervous contraction of the throat which makes

a sick man believe that a ball rises up from the oesophagus into

the larynx.

“In later life I have met people born to wealth who, never having

wanted for anything, had never even heard this problem in the

rule of three: A young man is to crime as a five-franc piece is

to X.–These gilded idiots say to me, ‘Why did you get into debt?

Why did you involve yourself in such onerous obligations?’ They

remind me of the princess who, on hearing that the people lacked

bread, said, ‘Why do not they buy cakes?’ I should like to see

one of these rich men, who complain that I charge too much for an

operation,–yes, I should like to see him alone in Paris without

a sou, without a friend, without credit, and forced to work with

his five fingers to live at all! What would he do? Where would he

go to satisfy his hunger?

“Bianchon, if you have sometimes seen me hard and bitter, it was

because I was adding my early sufferings on to the insensibility,

the selfishness of which I have seen thousands of instances in

the highest circles; or, perhaps, I was thinking of the obstacles

which hatred, envy, jealousy, and calumny raised up between me

and success. In Paris, when certain people see you ready to set

your foot in the stirrup, some pull your coat-tails, others

loosen the buckle of the strap that you may fall and crack your

skull; one wrenches off your horse’s shoes, another steals your

whip, and the least treacherous of them all is the man whom you

see coming to fire his pistol at you point blank.

“You yourself, my dear boy, are clever enough to make

acquaintance before long with the odious and incessant warfare

waged by mediocrity against the superior man. If you should drop

five-and-twenty louis one day, you will be accused of gambling on

the next, and your best friends will report that you have lost

twenty-five thousand. If you have a headache, you will be

considered mad. If you are a little hasty, no one can live with

you. If, to make a stand against this armament of pigmies, you

collect your best powers, your best friends will cry out that you

want to have everything, that you aim at domineering, at tyranny.

In short, your good points will become your faults, your faults

will be vices, and your virtues crime.

“If you save a man, you will be said to have killed him; if he

reappears on the scene, it will be positive that you have secured

the present at the cost of the future. If he is not dead, he will

die. Stumble, and you fall! Invent anything of any kind and claim

your rights, you will be crotchety, cunning, ill-disposed to

rising younger men.

“So, you see, my dear fellow, if I do not believe in God, I

believe still less in man. But do not you know in me another

Desplein, altogether different from the Desplein whom every one

abuses?–However, we will not stir that mud-heap.

“Well, I was living in that house, I was working hard to pass my

first examination, and I had no money at all. You know. I had

come to one of those moments of extremity when a man says, ‘I

will enlist.’ I had one hope. I expected from my home a box full

of linen, a present from one of those old aunts who, knowing

nothing of Paris, think of your shirts, while they imagine that

their nephew with thirty francs a month is eating ortolans. The

box arrived while I was at the schools; it had cost forty francs

for carriage. The porter, a German shoemaker living in a loft,

had paid the money and kept the box. I walked up and down the Rue

des Fosses-Saint-Germain-des-Pres and the Rue de l’Ecole de

Medecine without hitting on any scheme which would release my

trunk without the payment of the forty francs, which of course I

could pay as soon as I should have sold the linen. My stupidity

proved to me that surgery was my only vocation. My good fellow,

refined souls, whose powers move in a lofty atmosphere, have none

of that spirit of intrigue that is fertile in resource and

device; their good genius is chance; they do not invent, things

come to them.

“At night I went home, at the very moment when my fellow lodger

also came in–a water-carrier named Bourgeat, a native of Saint-

Flour. We knew each other as two lodgers do who have rooms off

the same landing, and who hear each other sleeping, coughing,

dressing, and so at last become used to one another. My neighbor

informed me that the landlord, to whom I owed three quarters’

rent, had turned me out; I must clear out next morning. He

himself was also turned out on account of his occupation. I spent

the most miserable night of my life. Where was I to get a

messenger who could carry my few chattels and my books? How could

I pay him and the porter? Where was I to go? I repeated these

unanswerable questions again and again, in tears, as madmen

repeat their tunes. I fell asleep; poverty has for its friends

heavenly slumbers full of beautiful dreams.

“Next morning, just as I was swallowing my little bowl of bread

soaked in milk, Bourgeat came in and said to me in his vile

Auvergne accent:

” ‘Mouchieur l’Etudiant, I am a poor man, a foundling from the

hospital at Saint-Flour, without either father or mother, and not

rich enough to marry. You are not fertile in relations either,

nor well supplied with the ready? Listen, I have a hand-cart

downstairs which I have hired for two sous an hour; it will hold

all our goods; if you like, we will try to find lodgings

together, since we are both turned out of this. It is not the

earthly paradise, when all is said and done.’

” ‘I know that, my good Bourgeat,’ said I. ‘But I am in a great

fix. I have a trunk downstairs with a hundred francs’ worth of

linen in it, out of which I could pay the landlord and all I owe

to the porter, and I have not a hundred sous.’

” ‘Pooh! I have a few dibs,’ replied Bourgeat joyfully, and he

pulled out a greasy old leather purse. ‘Keep your linen.’

“Bourgeat paid up my arrears and his own, and settled with the

porter. Then he put our furniture and my box of linen in his

cart, and pulled it along the street, stopping in front of every

house where there was a notice board. I went up to see whether

the rooms to let would suit us. At midday we were still wandering

about the neighborhood without having found anything. The price

was the great difficulty. Bourgeat proposed that we should eat at

a wine shop, leaving the cart at the door. Towards evening I

discovered, in the Cour de Rohan, Passage du Commerce, at the

very top of a house next the roof, two rooms with a staircase

between them. Each of us was to pay sixty francs a year. So there

we were housed, my humble friend and I. We dined together.

Bourgeat, who earned about fifty sous a day, had saved a hundred

crowns or so; he would soon be able to gratify his ambition by

buying a barrel and a horse. On learning of my situation–for he

extracted my secrets with a quiet craftiness and good nature, of

which the remembrance touches my heart to this day, he gave up

for a time the ambition of his whole life; for twenty-two years

he had been carrying water in the street, and he now devoted his

hundred crowns to my future prospects.”

Desplein at these words clutched Bianchon’s arm tightly. “He gave

me the money for my examination fees! That man, my friend,

understood that I had a mission, that the needs of my intellect

were greater than his. He looked after me, he called me his boy,

he lent me money to buy books, he would come in softly sometimes

to watch me at work, and took a mother’s care in seeing that I

had wholesome and abundant food, instead of the bad and

insufficient nourishment I had been condemned to. Bourgeat, a man

of about forty, had a homely, mediaeval type of face, a prominent

forehead, a head that a painter might have chosen as a model for

that of Lycurgus. The poor man’s heart was big with affections

seeking an object; he had never been loved but by a poodle that

had died some time since, of which he would talk to me, asking

whether I thought the Church would allow masses to be said for

the repose of its soul. His dog, said he, had been a good

Christian, who for twelve years had accompanied him to church,

never barking, listening to the organ without opening his mouth,

and crouching beside him in a way that made it seem as though he

were praying too.

“This man centered all his affections in me; he looked upon me as

a forlorn and suffering creature, and he became, to me, the most

thoughtful mother, the most considerate benefactor, the ideal of

the virtue which rejoices in its own work. When I met him in the

street, he would throw me a glance of intelligence full of

unutterable dignity; he would affect to walk as though he carried

no weight, and seemed happy in seeing me in good health and well

dressed. It was, in fact, the devoted affection of the lower

classes, the love of a girl of the people transferred to a

loftier level. Bourgeat did all my errands, woke me at night at

any fixed hour, trimmed my lamp, cleaned our landing; as good as

a servant as he was as a father, and as clean as an English girl.

He did all the housework. Like Philopoemen, he sawed our wood,

and gave to all he did the grace of simplicity while preserving

his dignity, for he seemed to understand that the end ennobles

every act.

“When I left this good fellow, to be house surgeon at the Hotel-

Dieu, I felt an indescribable, dull pain, knowing that he could

no longer live with me; but he comforted himself with the

prospect of saving up money enough for me to take my degree, and

he made me promise to go to see him whenever I had a day out:

Bourgeat was proud of me. He loved me for my own sake, and for

his own. If you look up my thesis, you will see that I dedicated

it to him.

“During the last year of my residence as house surgeon I earned

enough to repay all I owed to this worthy Auvergnat by buying him

a barrel and a horse. He was furious with rage at learning that I

had been depriving myself of spending my money, and yet he was

delighted to see his wishes fulfilled; he laughed and scolded, he

looked at his barrel, at his horse, and wiped away a tear, as he

said, ‘It is too bad. What a splendid barrel! You really ought

not. Why, that horse is as strong as an Auvergnat!’

“I never saw a more touching scene. Bourgeat insisted on buying

for me the case of instruments mounted in silver which you have

seen in my room, and which is to me the most precious thing

there. Though enchanted with my first success, never did the

least sign, the least word, escape him which might imply, ‘This

man owes all to me!’ And yet, but for him, I should have died of

want; he had eaten bread rubbed with garlic that I might have

coffee to enable me to sit up at night.

“He fell ill. As you may suppose, I passed my nights by his

bedside, and the first time I pulled him through; but two years

after he had a relapse; in spite of the utmost care, in spite of

the greatest exertions of science, he succumbed. No king was ever

nursed as he was. Yes, Bianchon, to snatch that man from death I

tried unheard-of things. I wanted him to live long enough to show

him his work accomplished, to realize all his hopes, to give

expression to the only need for gratitude that ever filled my

heart, to quench a fire that burns in me to this day.

“Bourgeat, my second father, died in my arms,” Desplein went on,

after a pause, visibly moved. “He left me everything he possessed

by a will he had had made by a public scrivener, dating from the

year when we had gone to live in the Cour de Rohan.

“This man’s faith was perfect; he loved the Holy Virgin as he

might have loved his wife. He was an ardent Catholic, but never

said a word to me about my want of religion. When he was dying he

entreated me to spare no expense that he might have every

possible benefit of clergy. I had a mass said for him every day.

Often, in the night, he would tell me of his fears as to his

future fate; he feared his life had not been saintly enough. Poor

man! he was at work from morning till night. For whom, then, is

Paradise–if there be a Paradise? He received the last sacrament

like the saint that he was, and his death was worthy of his life.

“I alone followed him to the grave. When I had laid my only

benefactor to rest, I looked about to see how I could pay my debt

to him; I found he had neither family nor friends, neither wife

nor child. But he believed. He had a religious conviction; had I

any right to dispute it? He had spoken to me timidly of masses

said for the repose of the dead; he would not impress it on me as

a duty, thinking that it would be a form of repayment for his

services. As soon as I had money enough I paid to Saint-Sulpice

the requisite sum for four masses every year. As the only thing I

can do for Bourgeat is thus to satisfy his pious wishes, on the

days when that mass is said, at the beginning of each season of

the year, I go for his sake and say the required prayers; and I

say with the good faith of a sceptic–’Great God, if there is a

sphere which Thou hast appointed after death for those who have

been perfect, remember good Bourgeat; and if he should have

anything to suffer, let me suffer it for him, that he may enter

all the sooner into what is called Paradise.’

“That, my dear fellow, is as much as a man who holds my opinions

can allow himself. But God must be a good fellow; He cannot owe

me any grudge. I swear to you, I would give my whole fortune if

faith such as Bourgeat’s could enter my brain.”

Bianchon, who was with Desplein all through his last illness,

dares not affirm to this day that the great surgeon died an

atheist. Will not those who believe like to fancy that the humble

Auvergnat came to open the gate of Heaven to his friend, as he

did that of the earthly temple on whose pediment we read the

words–”A grateful country to its great men.”

PARIS, January 1836.

ADDENDUM

The following personages appear in other stories of the Human Comedy.

Bianchon, Horace

Father Goriot

Cesar Birotteau

The Commission in Lunacy

Lost Illusions

A Distinguished Provincial at Paris

A Bachelor’s Establishment

The Secrets of a Princess

The Government Clerks

Pierrette

A Study of Woman

Scenes from a Courtesan’s Life

Honorine

The Seamy Side of History

The Magic Skin

A Second Home

A Prince of Bohemia

Letters of Two Brides

The Muse of the Department

The Imaginary Mistress

The Middle Classes

Cousin Betty

The Country Parson

In addition, M. Bianchon narrated the following:

Another Study of Woman

La Grande Breteche

Desplein

Cousin Pons

Lost Illusions

The Thirteen

The Government Clerks

Pierrette

A Bachelor’s Establishment

The Seamy Side of History

Modeste Mignon

Scenes from a Courtesan’s Life

Honorine

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